Some days...
Some days my boy who enjoys anything book or school based sets his face, looks me square in the eye and says, "I don't care if these tests are required I want to burn them."
Some days I ask my biggest boy to change out of his shorts into pants for scouts, and you'd think that he'd been asked to cut his own arm off. After he spews words of frustration and anger he walks away mumbling his first, "Whatever."
Some days when it's time to go grocery shopping, but my one year old wants to play in the pouring rain so he follows me around the house screaming at me while I pack his diaper bag.
Some days I find myself breathing deep, and wondering what has happened to my usually well behaved children. When these days happen I know it's time to slow. We snuggle a little bit more. We have dance parties in the kitchen. My phone is set aside. We put aside our tasks, as they can wait for another day, and we begin to fix our hearts. I give them space, and wait for them to come to me. I ask questions and listen for answers. I give extra hugs.
It doesn't take long for me to find that those test make my boy feel like he has to earn my love. Allowing me the chance to teach him again about unconditional love. Telling him that he will always no matter what be loved by me. It doesn't take long for his heavy heart to be replaced with joy.
A few minutes after my boy gets in the car wearing pants when he says, "Mom, I'm sorry I yelled at you. I know it's not your fault, it wasn't respectful of me. I shouldn't have been frustrated with you. Do you forgive me? I love you."
And the babe, well he's one, once we make it to the car it didn't matter what we were doing he was just happy to be out of the house. He happily chatted all the way to store and back.
Some days heart, is tired, but full. These hard days show me that they hear the lessons I try to teach them. I rest knowing they feel safe sharing their big thoughts and insecurities with me. I can see that they are humble enough to apologize on their own accord without being prompted. Even though these days are hard, I am glad to walk with them through it.
Some days I ask my biggest boy to change out of his shorts into pants for scouts, and you'd think that he'd been asked to cut his own arm off. After he spews words of frustration and anger he walks away mumbling his first, "Whatever."
Some days when it's time to go grocery shopping, but my one year old wants to play in the pouring rain so he follows me around the house screaming at me while I pack his diaper bag.
Some days I find myself breathing deep, and wondering what has happened to my usually well behaved children. When these days happen I know it's time to slow. We snuggle a little bit more. We have dance parties in the kitchen. My phone is set aside. We put aside our tasks, as they can wait for another day, and we begin to fix our hearts. I give them space, and wait for them to come to me. I ask questions and listen for answers. I give extra hugs.
It doesn't take long for me to find that those test make my boy feel like he has to earn my love. Allowing me the chance to teach him again about unconditional love. Telling him that he will always no matter what be loved by me. It doesn't take long for his heavy heart to be replaced with joy.
A few minutes after my boy gets in the car wearing pants when he says, "Mom, I'm sorry I yelled at you. I know it's not your fault, it wasn't respectful of me. I shouldn't have been frustrated with you. Do you forgive me? I love you."
And the babe, well he's one, once we make it to the car it didn't matter what we were doing he was just happy to be out of the house. He happily chatted all the way to store and back.
Some days heart, is tired, but full. These hard days show me that they hear the lessons I try to teach them. I rest knowing they feel safe sharing their big thoughts and insecurities with me. I can see that they are humble enough to apologize on their own accord without being prompted. Even though these days are hard, I am glad to walk with them through it.
Love the Lord you God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might...teach them diligently to your sons and talk of them when you sit in your house and when you walk by the way and when you lie down and when you rise up.
~ Words of Moses.
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